I was tested and I failed. Why am I telling you this? It's not because I'm proud of failing or anything like that, because surely I am not!!! That feeling of conviction is "all in my face" as some would say!! But I'm telling you because I learned a lesson. We live to learn and learn to teach. I learned that no matter how well you may be doing with a situation or how much you feel you're past it, you shouldn't stop praying about for it can resurface at any time!! I figured I was over one thing so I haven't really been praying about it. But yet, here I am. Our prayer lives must remain strong in ALL areas!! Don't get caught up in the "seems like"! PRAY! PRAY! PRAY!
I am also telling you this to let you and myself know that I am human!! This part may be more for myself than you, but it’s been one of those things weighing in on me! Since the launch of Royalty Mindset, I have learned that people are watching me more than I think! It’s like I’m shocked when I am somewhere and hear someone say something about Royalty Mindset or hear someone refer to me as Queen. It’s just that I never thought about this being so well read or as big as it is. I never imagined that this “summer project” would be all that is it now! But with knowing that there are always people watching, comes a lot of pressure. I feel that I am under pressure to uphold a certain image. I feel as if I need to dress a certain way or look and act a certain way at all times. I realize that there are young girls that see me as an “inspiration” and that I am to set an example for my generation. I would just never want that image jeopardized. So there are times that I feel as if I have to maintain this almost perfect image in order to set an example. But I really just wanted to share this failure with you all to let you as well as myself know that I am not perfect and that I do make mistakes. I am human! I feel that I can be an even better “inspiration” or “role model” if I am real! I don’t want to be some fictional image. I want to be relatable.