I have a goal to get to, but at the moment it isn’t in my reach. Where I want to be is not where I am right now. In the simplest of terms, I feel stuck. I know where I want to be, and I know how to get there (well kind of), but there is something blocking me. I’ve been stuck spiritually before, and I have also said that I wouldn’t want to experience that feeling again. But yet, I find myself here…stuck…again! I find very dangerous to be in a situation and making no progress spiritually. For so long, I’ve sat to analyze my situations and just how I ended up at this point. I had to go back and think about what’s been going on, how I chose to handle my issues, and if I should have done things differently. Of course, I could have handled so many things differently, but we are taught to live with no regrets. I started to realize that a lot of what is going with me are results of me doing things my own way. I am stressed and worried about situations that could have been avoided if I would’ve first asked God. We take matters in our hands so quickly. We see an opportunity and just take it and run with it, without taking the time to seek God and ask for his approval first.
I am here stuck, slowly losing all that I’ve worked for, and being weakened because of my lack of consistency. All things that we do in Christ, and any other tasks that we actually care for, should be done in a manner that is consistent. If something really matters to us, we should dedicate ourselves to it and do so wholeheartedly. If I would have remained consistent and done things as I should have, I would not be where I am now. We sometimes get so caught up in the things that are going on around us that we begin to neglect God. It’s not done purposely, we aren’t aiming for full on rebellion or anything, but we simply allowed ourselves to get caught up in life. My consistency failed when my work load increased, my prayers became sparse, and readings began to slack. I feel so stuck now because I have deprived my spirit of the things that are to keep it alive. In other words, I am starving my spirit. The starvation of my spirit is the result of my own actions. I can blame no one else for my spiritual state. If I would only seek God in all of my ways, I could be much further than I am now.
I now understand my issue and just how I got here. If you have ever come to me for advice on a situation or read my previous blogposts, you would know that the first thing that I am going to tell you is to analyze your situation and figure out just how you got there. I would tell you that in order to come up with a solution, you need to get to the root of your issue. I had to take my own advice. Before I could try to fix my situation, I had to get to the root. Since I know HOW I got here, I now can move on to the solution. If my situation is the result of being inconsistent, then my solution would be the opposite, to restore my consistency. I am going to go after my goals that are set, remain consistent, and get to where I want to be. I refuse to have an issue, know the solution, and stay in my same situation. It just doesn’t work like that. As stated in Queen’s Qorner, “Together we will do great work building ourselves…” So, remember to help someone else along the way, share this post with them, anddddd Stay Golden! (;